meaning

Hello, Honored Rabbi, I read your articles in which you said that God has withdrawn from our world and that he does not interfere in what happens in it except very rarely. And you said that this is even for the better because he actually already trusts us that we know how to live in the world even without him. And what we have left is basically only our Torah that dictates to us the laws that he wants us to observe. According to this argument, there must be a meaning to this world for a person to live on his own without God. My problem is that, unlike most of the world, I do not find meaning in this world. I do not find interest in what the world has to offer me. And if, according to your claim, there is no certain spirituality here in the world like the closeness of God, he would not have created me like this.