Personality improvement

Hello Rabbi, a bit of a strange question, but maybe the Rabbi has an answer.
I have been reading the things the rabbi writes for a long time, and I really look forward to them. I think that my thinking is also sharpened in general, and the rabbi’s perspectives on specific issues break the simple conventions for me and open up new directions of thinking for me, and I am very happy about that.
Although I notice that all of this fails to create great aspirations and desires in me, and a drive for the personality to improve. At first I thought it was because the content of the things is usually disapproving and often tends to a position that takes the spirit out of the interpreters (I hope the diagnosis is not wrong), but then I thought that even in issues that the rabbi greatly praises and pushes, such as Torah study, the same thought of aspiration for devotion, etc., is not yet created. I say this in comparison to the words of Rabbi Kook, for example, where there is not as much systematicity and understandable explanations, but a push for improvement is created.
I will comment that I assume that your goal is probably to present your intellectual position on various issues, and not what I mentioned. But as a great fan of your words who also wants to be filled with genuine aspirations to be good, I thought I would raise the question.
Thank you very much.