Question

I don’t understand how it makes sense that I’m on the computer on the Sabbath while wearing tzitzit and a kippah, after having studied Torah for several years and continuing to study, and being a believer who studies, prays three times a day, and tries to work on fear of Heaven, and yet because I was diagnosed with depression I throw Sabbath observance out the window.
Is there any advice the Rabbi has regarding keeping the Sabbath, and what should I do in this situation?