Question

Good evening.
I would appreciate the Rabbi’s thoughts on the practice of daily prayers, which seems like a pretty exhausting ritual that doesn’t move us forward in life anywhere. Whether the Patriarchs instituted them or whether they correspond to the sacrifices (which themselves were meant to uproot the mindset of idol worshipers, and prayers then likewise to uproot what is in the heart…), in the end it is repeated recitation of the same text again and again and again.
Beyond the fact that there is no proof that prayers are answered (it seems to me the Rabbi has written quite a bit about this in the past), even if the goal is the prayer itself, my personal feeling is that repeating the same Amidah prayer three times a day (normally), the same requests according to a fixed formula, feels idiotic—not to mention the dozens of pages of that same text every morning in the Shacharit prayer with bleary eyes.
Personally, prayer is for me a kind of backbreaking labor, like grinding already-ground flour or drawing water with a leaky bucket. I don’t feel that the prayers are answered, nor do I sense any value in the act itself.
Moreover, the very idea of systematically worshiping God in such a way seems to me like forced groveling before a narcissistic dictator obsessed with honor.
It suits me much better not to pray on a fixed basis—on the contrary, to pray when there is a need, when one feels like praying, on special occasions, and the like—so that it does not turn into some compulsive habit of a forced ritual that feels to me as though it does not even honor the One to whom the prayer is addressed.
Does the Rabbi agree that there is room to give up daily prayers on a regular basis? As for me, I pray only rarely because of these feelings. Is this an improper act (or more precisely, inaction)?